Wow I can't believe that the time has come to say that my little guy is one year post-op. I have been thinking about this for some time now and how much my parents had helped me to get the point of surgery, and then the tragic way we were together just 12 days later.
When I think about the actual day of his surgery, all the waiting and restlessness from me and my family, and when we finally saw the surgeon after he was done, he gave us a thumbs up, I think tears of joy were what were falling that day, on all of our cheeks. and then there was little Nicholas not knowing what was going on but keeping all of our moods higher then if he wasn't there!!
I can remember seeing my dad wiping tears from his eyes and thinking the only time I had ever seen him cry before that was when my grandmother (his mom) passes away!!
My mom's tears were a wonderful thing to see to, more so now because those were the last tears of joy I got to see from her eyes.
When we first saw my little Lucas in the ICU he had tubes and wires (these really didn't bother me I expected it, being a nurse myself) and to see his round head after it was so pointed before, I just wanted to pick him up and cuddle him, but I refrained. We went back after supper and I picked him up then and the little bugger promptly puked on me, again not totally surprising. The next time I picked him up was the next morning when he was in his room on the plastics ward. Actually he wouldn't let me put him down until early afternoon. Just in time for his post -op CT scan!!
seeing the swelling the next few days and watching him take everything in stride and watching him now, you wouldn't know he had ever gone through any of it.
I love seeing his smiling face every day, even when he is getting on my nerves!! But I need to end this now I smell a combo of poo and celery salt, so one had pooed and they both have gotten into my celery salt that I left on the table after seasoning supper, I hope the whole bottle isn't on the floor!!
I'll write again soon!!!!!
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