Horrible week at home!!

A lot has happened since my last post!!  Well the first few days at home with Lucas were ok, but by Saturday morning we were packing up and heading to Sudbury.  My mom, who was with us right through everything with the surgery, who traveled with us and helped pay for the hotel and so on, was in the hospital not doing very well.  When I got there and seen her she was in ICU and on a breathing machine and several IV medications.

Well that day she had a CT and was doing not to good but not horrible either, she had also had an allergic reaction to some antibiotics that they had given as they found infection in her blood stream.  We went home that night but went back to Sudbury Sunday morning, well she was worse!!  A lot worse, but one doctor mentioned that it was not even 48 hours yet and to let her try and fight the infection.  Well we all went home, or to families houses that were in Sudbury, by 10pm to try to sleep.  Well Nicholas woke up at 230am screaming not completely sure why but probably scared of the dark, but at 330am my dad called us, he was staying at a different family members house, saying the hospital called and he wanted us to go in with him. 

When we got there, at 400am, the nurse had told us that she was maxed out on all of the drugs he could give her to keep her blood pressure stable.  Mom held ok there for a couple hours so at 6am my sister and I went back to where we were staying and got the kids and the rest of our families, and went back to the hospital, dad stayed there.  We got back to the ICU waiting room by about 930am and dad had already gone in to see mom again.  We convinced him to go and get some breakfast and we had got a coffee for him as well.  While my sister and I were there mom had a seizure, so we got dad and the doctor, and this was the point that we finally decided to call the entire family because mom wasn't winning her fight any more. 

My sister and I went out to call family and that was the hardest thing I think I had to do!!  We waited for all the family to get there and were in and out all day.  At about 4pm all the family that needed to be there was and we again spoke to the doctor and made the final decision to stop medications as they weren't working anymore anyway!!  Well with in the hour after stopping all the medications mom passed away!!!  All of us were there including all of her brothers and sisters and son-in-laws.  After I went and held Lucas and he cuddled into me like he knew something was wrong!!!

Well during this week, 2 days later, on Wednesday, I had to call the doctor for Lucas as it looked like he might be getting an infection in his incision.  Well speaking to Alan and then sending him the picture it was ok just a little local reaction to the sutures. 

That night we went to a wake for a good friend that passed away the same day as mom, and that too was hard to hear!!

Thursday was moms wake/visitation and that went ok boys were ok but wanted mommy!!  Friday was the funeral, horrible day all around!  Cold rainy day so once we were at the cemetery, it was awful!!  We came home Sunday this week and I am finding that I want to call home to talk to mom about some things.  I guess its the little things like that that I'm gonna miss the most!!

Mom I miss you and I always will!!!  I need you!!  and you will always be there with me, only now in spirit!!  I love you so much!!