Sometimes when I sit down and think how I noticed his head as soon as I seen him, I wonder if other people notice his head too. I wonder if they notice it and just don't want to say anything or do they just not see it.
I would really like to know if people see it and what their comment would be. I think if I heard people talking about it or at least asking me about it, I might feel even better about putting him through this surgery.
No one not even the doctors commented on what his head looked like until his 2 month check when the suture line felt "overlapped" and was a metopic ridge. I don't know if I'm mad at the world for doing this to me after a long time trying to get this child or if I'm just frustrated that its not something that is truly that noticeable.
I guess because I have a scar on my face from a dog bite that people do see, not so much now as when I was a child, but I guess I feel that people should see this, because I do every day!! And I think that they should see Lucas' head the way it has the ridge at his fore head and the pinching at the temples and the way his eyes are a little closer together.
When I first saw him because of his looks and because of my nursing background I looked him over for obvious signs of disorders like downs, but nothing that was classic of these conditions stood out so that vanished right away. But this feeling of what's wrong stayed.
So I'm happy I know what's wrong now but not happy that he has to have such a major surgery to fix it!!
That's my rant for tonight, late night after long day of 2 whiny, screaming babies, and lots of packing for a week on Manitoulin with my family!!
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